This photo was taken 2 years ago, where my dad’s close cousin offered me a trip to see Maria ski her first World Championship. I hesitated a lot, due to my condition at the time. And I can really see why I did. I had been in bed since October, and this was in February. That makes 6 months, where I did literally nothing else but sleep and eat. It hurts me a little to see this photo, cause you can obviously see that I wasn’t in a good place in my life. I was pale, my eyes were puffy and my body was just so damn tired.
But hey!! Look at me now, I’m glowing in my opinion. I finally feel like my puzzle has been solved, and I know what I need to do. I love my life just as it is right now, and I wake up grateful everyday. Grateful for those people I have around me, and grateful for just being alive, with more than enough energy. I wouldn’t have changed a single bit of my life, cause that’s what made me who I am today, and I have something to be proud of.
Hvem hadde trodd det? At jeg skulle få dele en tre sidet artikkel i Se og Hør med min beste venn og søster. Det å få dele historien min på en såpass stor plattform, betyr virkelig mye for meg. Jeg vil så gjerne nå ut til de som opplever, eller har opplevd det samme som meg. Det å miste energien sin, føle at en ikke hører til noen plass og ikke minst gå glipp av alt det sosiale som tenårene medbringer, det er ikke så lett for en fjortenåring. Men nå står jeg her i dag, og jeg kunne ikke vært mer stolt over meg selv. Jeg kom meg igjennom det til slutt, og det har bare gjort meg sterkere. Nå faller pusle bitene på plass, og livet mitt tar en retning som gir meg sommerfugler i magen. Og jeg hadde aldri funnet den veien uten alt det jeg har vært igjennom. Jeg er så takknemlig for det livet jeg har, og det burde du også være. Vi kan dø i morgen, vil du virkelig kaste bort livet ditt på noe som ikke gjør deg lykkelig? Jeg har ikke tenkt til det i hvert fall, og det burde ikke du heller. Nå skal jeg kaste meg på et tog til Bienne, og vente på verdens beste kjæreste, ciiiaaooo <3
// Who would’ve thought that? That I got to share a three sided article in a big norwegian magazine (Se og Hør) with my best friend and sister. To share my story at a platform this big, really means a lot to me. I want to share my story with as many as possible, for those who experience or have experienced the same as me. To loose your energy, feel that you don’t belong anywhere and not to mention all the social stuff that the teenage life brings, isn’t easy for a fourteen year old to handle. But I’m here today, and I couldn’t be more proud of myself. I got through it in the end, and it only made me stronger. Now the puzzle pieces are coming together, and my life is headed in a direction that gives me butterflies. And I would’ve never figured this out if it wasn’t for all that I went through. I am so grateful for the life I have, and you should too. We might die tomorrow, do you really want to waste your life on something that doesn’t make you happy? I know I wont, and you shouldn’t either. But now I gotta run, I got a train to catch to Bienne, where I’m meeting the best boyfriend in the world, ciiiaaooo <3